Foot In Mouth

Posted Up: March 17th 2005

Yeah, I've been used to the effects of this disease for some time now. It seems like I'd be immune to it considering how many times I've been under this diseases influence over the years. Naw, I'm still seeing it time and time again whether I even intending it or not.

Just a couple days ago I lashed out and put up a column where I took some shots @ Rednations.com when I guess in all honesty I just wanted to present a question of where did the native hip hop go? I came to this realization after a couple of days where I just didn't think about it. Then I looked at the written again and wondered, "what the hell?" I didn't just go to them and ask any questions, I just vented out - again. Shades of how things went for me in younger and dumber days. I figure I was heated at the time, and I probably wasn't even heated @ that website. Things suck at the moment, but not to the point my view of things is jaded all the time, just certain times.

Okay, so folks do lash out. Folks do lash out and don't think of what they're saying other than, "I want to hurt someone," in most cases. It's a defensive reaction to lash out, but the one who gets lashing might not even be the cause of frustration. I know this much from personal experiences on both sides of this certain scenario. I've lashed out, and been lashed out on. I usually try not to take it personally, but that's a lot easier said than done. As for the lashing out part, I just do what I do. I try not to get too caught up in anything to the point where I lose my cool. If I am not a participant in the situation, or have to be, then I take my leave. Less stress for me in most cases.

The aftermath of Foot In Mouth? Usually it's an apology or realization of wrong doing. Hopefully that is going to be the aftermath. Sometimes though, it's just not anything, just a statement made and nothing after that. In stating that, I think I should state I do realize I lashed out on Rednations.com, or more Vino since it is his site. He's doing his thing to try and promote natives in music and modelling. I guess I just took it personally when hip hop folk seemed to be taking a back seat. That's because this is what I do, I focus on natives in hip hop and figured some folks where trying to do the same things. Well, that is not the case here. Vino is venturing out on other things like I want to do, but with natives in hip hop. I guess all that's left to say is "my bad." I'll admit as a man that I did something wrong. I'm not that weak hearted to look beyond my own shortcomings. I appreciate the efforts being presented through that site and the help they've given to natives in and out of native hip hop.

Where does this leave us? Us being me, my mouth, and my foot... I'm sure we'll all meet up again at the most unexpected times. I'm hoping I'll be able to rectify the situation in some form or fashion. For others though, and their spats of Foot In Mouth, let's just hope it's nothing too major.

Posted on 04 Jun 2006 by Windreamer